Reflection for this Raya

Yipee.. It's the much anticipated RECESS WEEK! and it's like a week before Raya! How nicely well planned the schedule is for us celebrating Raya!

Here I am blasting out Raya songs to get me into the festive mood coz i'm just so lazy to get my royal ass to clean my cluttered room! I cant even remember how many 847218719 times i cleaned my room but yet it is still in a mess.

Cluttered and random; i found a pair of goggles in my dressing table drawer! E gawddd..

Then, it hit me;
The mess in my room reflects the mess in my life.
yes, cluttered and random.

Well.. if you have noticed.. no updates about the Boyfriend..
Things have been pretty much complicated lately.. no, no not the one you indicate on Friendster. Jokes aside, cut the chase, all I can say
We're just waiting for the right time.
Time changes people.

i admit my past was kinda, okie, not kinda... more like VERY colourful... but that was my past isnt it? i left them for good... even if it or they catch up with me now, i have nothing to fear, coz i'm clean... n no, i won't go back... coz if i do, i have nothing to gain but everything to lose... n i choose to believe i m a pretty smart girl... - credits to lenny! :)

Likewise, I feel the same way.. after i revive my past last year, it just proves to be even disasterous.

I'm not getting all emo, but i learnt that it's not about being a bigger person or burying the past, The past is the past for a reason.
I learnt it the hard way last year right before Hari raya. It was more like the Christmas jingle, " Last Raya, I gave you my heart, the very next day you throw away" (If he is reading this, I would like to let him know that i appreciate that he totally disappear in my life.)
For I am happy to be with someone who is sincere now, even if it is complicated or not.

Ive been pretty much in my little hole, with the people that matters and that is enough for me.
I used to be that Social Butterfly who tries to please everyone but i guess my job is done.
Ive toned down..
yeah, like the saying "Priorities changes.."
I have no hard feelings or whatsoever towards these people, but I just hope that my decision of letting the past be the past be respected. Life goes on.

Let me be happy, the monday blues chaser that you can count on. Let's not make things complicated and the world will be a better place. I am grateful for the people who tried to advise me in life, to be a better person( crudely "Grow UP!") and that includes those not part of my tiny social circle now. Thanks for the memories.

Back to cleaning my closet!

P.s: My MSN's giving me so much problem and im just too lazy to download it again! hah